Hi all
Dad was diagnosed last Feb with secondary liver cancer, He had chemo up until November doing well and no side effect then round 10 and his fingers and feet hurt him too much.
As liver cancer had shrunk they said would leave for 3 months.
Dad primary cancer was rectal and wanted to deal with symptoms of this, so wished he had carried on with liver treatment. Anyway he went to 5 days of radiotherapy for rectal in January. All was good until around 2nd February when he started to feel ill and could not sleep called doctor and gave him sleeping tablets and said this was down to radiotherapy. Well on Sunday 7th dad was really unwell and took him to hospital. He had scans liver had got worse and was going to arrange a care package for him to come home and if gets stronger have a new drug that he could start this Is what I got told on Wednesday . I spoke to Dad 3 times a day and he said he was eating and going to get stronger to come home and go on new drug. He was so positive I spoke him on Thursday and really did not sound great but was annoyed as could not do much for himself.
I got a phone call late hour's Thursday saying dad had taken a downhill and fluid was on his lungs and to come in.
so rushed in he eyes were rolling and asking for them to help him, this was for5 minsI said he needs pain relief. We were immediately put in a private room.Anyway they carried on with antibiotics until 8am Friday morning and I had to make choice to stop the antibiotic as dad was unconscious and his heart and fluid had not changed. By 9am his was still unconscious but twitching more so said could he have more pain relief, they put a care line in morphine and muscle relaxers.
This is the main part that distressed me so so much at 09:50 dad opened his eyes try to get out of bed, said help me looked really cross and kept saying no no no like a baby and took his breath. It was like saying his brain wanted to fight but body said no. Held his hand the whole time tried to kiss him This was my last 2 minutes xx
