Hello Hubby11

I'm so very sorry to hear about the recent loss of your Uncle. Grief is a natural process, but it can be devastating and although somewhat of a cliche, it is still very early days in your journey with grief. 

It's good to hear that you have the option to use a counselling service at work. It can be quite daunting to make that first phone call and I can understand that you're hesitant to reach out to them. I wonder if you might find it helpful to get in touch with a bereavement charity called Cruse. They offer a number of different types of bereavement support including being about to chat with a bereavement counsellor online. It may be an option that you want to explore and if you later feel confident to reach out for 1-1 support you can do that. 

There is no right nor wrong way to grieve for someone. Some people cry and others don't but the positive thing here is that you've recognised that you need some support and so I'd encourage you to get in touch with Cruse or your working counselling service. 

I hope this helps. 

Best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator