Hi I think I might have posted on here before I lost my dad 12 weeks ago he had only been diagnosed with cancer 11 weeks before he passed away the consultant and doctors were all so positive my dad would have radiotherapy then chemotherapy then hopefully operate in the new year he had a mri scan and the cancer was local bowel cancer and not spread we were all so positive and so was my dad he said to me this won't beat me then he had his 1st session of chemotherapy on the Friday and by the Tuesday he had collapsed at home and my mum found him he'd gone we had to have a post mortem and the results were the cancer had advanced causing his peritoneum sac to rupture causing peritonitis.I feel complete lost I cry every single day and I just feel like I'm stuck my head won't accept the fact he's gone should I still be feeling like this I suffer with depression and anxiety which isn't helping I feel so empty and sad all the time just wondered if this is normal