HI, tomorrow is my first birthday without my husband of 44 years, he passed away just 7 weeks ago so my pain is still very raw...praying that it will ease with time.

I had been my husband's full time caregiver for four years during which time I also cared for my father who came to live with us for a couple of years after my mother and younger brother died within weeks of each other. Sadly Dad passed two years ago as well.
Lockdown isn't helping as I haven't seen any of my family for weeks and am really feeling the full force of grief, lonliness and lack of purpose...like who do I look after now?

I know there is so much sadness in the world and I know that  death is a given but for now I can only acknowledge the pain that I am feeling. I hope that doesn't come across as selfish because I really do empathise with the loss and grief of others and send blessings to you all x