Hello I'm not doing that well  I've not been eating  felt like crap yesterday  there is nothing left inside me   My body is still trying to do all the normal stuff like going to the toilet  but there is nothing left inside me ( not good)  sorry you're having a bad day yesterday we will be okay 

Ah bless you, that's so hard when you can't face eating. I was like that when Phil was ill but strangely eating better now. Think it was the anxiety of what might happen that used to get to me. Lost about 3 stone since the first lockdown. I needed to though so it's OK. It's hard though to make yourself eat when you really don't feel like it. Hope you manage to have a little bit of something today. I used to manage rice crispies or plain toast when I was at my worst food wise. 

Just had to ring Phil's work to look into his pension etc. Felt awful. Like mercenary if you know what I mean? Ended up crying to the poor woman on the phone. 

 Poor you trying to sort it all out I feel your pain talking about pensions is never easy after losing a loved one ! My mum is helping today is I can hardly move  hurt my back to!  Then feel really guilty as my wife was in constant pain still managed to look after the kids .I miss her so much 

Ouch, sounds sore. I've woken up with a sore neck today as well. Got the votarol on like an old nanna. 

Doing home school stuff with Hannah. It's like pulling teeth. Phil was much more patient with her. I'm patient with the kids I teach but find it far harder with my own two. Know that sounds daft! 

Hope you feel better soon. I'd recommend the voltarol if you can get some. Definitely helps. 

I'm ok back getting better I felt so selfish earlier as I was in loads of pain but my wife was probably in Even more pain ? A few days ago o was ok  ish felt martyne was ever were  I few days on now I feel like I can't feel her?  Being sick didn't help she is the best person you could want if you're feeling poorly. How do I/ we get over this  It's doing my head in that no one understands only people on this page and to understand what a loss means 

So hard, isn't it? Phil used to be lush when I was poorly. Always there with a hug, a hot water bottle and a cuppa. Miss him so much. 

Know what you mean about sometimes feeling like they're there and sometimes not. I'm the same. Some days I'm convinced he's with me then other days I just feel empty again. 

We'll get through though, for the kids. 

It really is. I see people's posts on Facebook and stuff with their partners and I just feel so jealous. Then I feel awful for feeling like that. Never felt anything like it and it's just awful. Like you say, so few people can really understand too. 

I'm in my bed crying  I hate being in bed alone  but I don't want any woman here with me just want her  my wife. Its silly as I've never met you but you understand everything   And  know what to  say as you feel the same 

It really helps that you understand. It's so hard listening to people who have no clue what it's like telling us we'll be ok and that time heals and all the other cliches. So glad I found this page and that we can talk and support each other.