I lost my queen 3 years in march she wasn't just my mum she was my best friend spoke every day  if i didn't answer the phone she would get the train to my house we was so so close....I've done crazy things since I lost her...healing we all do in different ways...but we do live smile laugh again still have a lot of bad days but it's crazy for me to say this but we will be ok and strong again..my queen had to go through me having cancer twice..can't imagine how she felt..and know I'm going through it again..waiting for results..sending you all love and strength