I lost my wife to cancer recently and I have never felt so alone. I am experiencing all kinds of extreme emotions from grief to guilt. I really want to connect and talk to others who have been through this terrible period.
I'm so pleased for you was in there somewhere you always wanted to go? Hope you no i'm always here for you x what we have been through no one should see
Morning mate I had an ok sleep last night when I finally fell asleep ! Feeling in complete denial today as it's been exactly 1 month since my wifes death hate typing that word can't Believe it If I'm honest! Hope your ok ?
Glad you had sleep last night - last thing we need is lack of sleep ontop of this. I woke up 'numb' this morning - like no feeling. I'm not sure what to think about that - felt like a piece of concrete.
Another day to get through.
Going out for walk later - I sensed that Rossella is trying to get me to take a specific walk. Hope I get it right.
Try and enjoy your walk I think it helps getting outside I'm ok with most things at the moment just the bid one today dying/ death why her! It really means forever? Will I never be with her again? I guess it's just the fact one minute she's in your life then she is gone forever ? So like you I feel like concrete
It's not forever! She is free now - free of pain and all the suffering in the world but she is not gone, just free of the body you both knew. The personality - the being remains. If you really want to find her again you will - you have a connection eternal. In what form and when you will find her again I cannot say but it will happen.
When we meet up we will talk about everything - including all the difficult moments so we can get it all out. I can drive to Southampton. It will be good for both of us.
Up and down - now when a memory comes into my mind I try to look away from it or think of something else. It's the only way I can keep going at the moment. I keep hearing her voice - giving me directions, where to go.
I'm so glad you're here and I voice mate are you still on your walk if you finished your walk where did you end up because obviously that is where she wanted you to go x
