I lost my wife to cancer recently and I have never felt so alone. I am experiencing all kinds of extreme emotions from grief to guilt. I really want to connect and talk to others who have been through this terrible period.
Horrible morning this morning Talk about the flight or fight going through my head I had nowhere to run I really felt in the dark place Not killing myself!but really scared about ever thing I finally got it under control thinking about what my wife would say to me! I had this dream that I was waiting for a train that my wife was on obviously the train came but she never did . I need help to get through this
Try to find something to distract your mind. Something you can turn to that will put it out of your mind (or at least put it to one side).
Planning this India thing kinda gets me out of it (it's still there just out of sight but one sideward glance and back in it). It's the only way I can catch a break - catch a breath - give myself any kind of hope in all this.
I just don't really like feeling like this and if I do get better I seem to think that I don't love her enough then if that makes any sense I really am not in a good place but I do feel a bit stronger than I was this morning I hope you're doing okay Richard talking to you all the way through this has helped me so much x
Yeah I know what you mean - I get similar feeling. If I start to enjoy life at all then I start feeling guilty. I feel like i need to suffer to show her that i still love her.
Very up and down today - bittersweet.
I told Rossella today that we are going to India together - share everything. If I enjoy we will enjoy together.
