I lost my wife to cancer recently and I have never felt so alone. I am experiencing all kinds of extreme emotions from grief to guilt. I really want to connect and talk to others who have been through this terrible period.
I'm a mixed bag I've been ok then terrible ! Funeral Thursday now seems so real this is really happening. Miss the wife more and more every day but seem to be realising I can never get her back in the way I want! This way is so horrible for me and the children but she has no cancer no pain and is free to fly again I no my wife will never stop loving me and call for me when it's my time to be with her again x
I did says lots to her the last couple of days but did she understand everything I said? I am so confused in my mind u can't remember everything I said to her. I said I loved her but I don't know if I told her that she was the love of my life.
Did I ask her forgiveness for the times I wasn't there?
To be honest I never accepted she was dying until the last few hours.
I promise you she Heard everything you said my wife did! the hearing is the last thing to go you told her you love her she all ready knew she was the love of your life so no need to say it really as for asking for forgiveness about not being there this is what my wife said to me 3 days before she passed away! I no you were not always with me for chemo or days when I felt crap but your always in my heat always and forever also I want you to be at work to pay for the house and good we eat bill to pay etc ( I hated not being with her to) but she was right we were a team we thought she would get better as well so she wanted our house. To be ready for her. So your wife understand s trust me. The last 3 days I sat with her and told her I will always love you x
Richard/chris. ive been fine thank you had a chill day.
Dont beat yourself up Richrard you did everything for her you could possible do. Chris is right they can hear you and obviously she will know the love you felt for her.
I will be thinking about you both on them 2 days next week. I have no words but im sure your dear wifes will have the send off they deserve. Both free of pain, which must give you both great comfort.
