Thankyou yes she loved those songs.

Having a very bad day today - seeing all the images of her in my mind at the end is heartbreaking.

Such suffering should not have happened to such a pure and beautiful soul.

I hope to break out of this today.

When I'm like this I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.

I know Richard i was the same only had the ending in my head which was horrific, but it does ease off a few weeks down the line. 

I still have terrible days 6 months on its only natural.

I had memories and wind beneath my wings by Barbara Streisand , beautiful singer.

Going for a walk in fresh air does help and takes your mind of it abit.

stay strong and take each day as it comes.

take care

Debbie

Hi mate we can do this you told me my wife is with me  so that means you're wife is With you?im no mood swings change ever 5 minutes or so having a bad day is completely normal another thing  you said to me was think how hard your wife battled on and tried to beat this we HAVE to do this for our loved ones  remember one day at a time x

Hello  Debbie I have been Reading your post you sent to Richard and I just want to say thank you your helping me to 

Yes ive been reading your post as well, you doing great job with kids so hard for you but make sure you get help either by family or outside help. 

Its early days and so difficult i really feel for you and your 2 children.

Just do a day at a time your kids need you more than anything, 

dont be afraid to get councilling too. 

Always here if ya need to chat.

take care x

Thank you  I don't no how I'm doing kids seem fine and help me a lot  but all I want is my wife  my life partner  every day apart seems harder  I love her so much and would do anything to make her come back  but know that's not  going to happen! I worry she is not at peace yet she never wanted to leave us  so I'm stuck there   Between a rock and a hard place   I need to think how amazing heaven is  and she s happy but deep down I don't feel it 

I know its so hard a cruel world. 

Been out of pain as got to be peace hasn't it surly, even though none of them wanted to leave us i get comfort knowing my husband is not suffering anymore and im sure in time you will too.

Its still vey raw for you.   

Take care 

Debbie x

Are keep going forward day by day  

Thanks Debbie - I am feeling a bit better now.

I guess when you have been with someone for so long it is just so difficult to accept that they are no longer there in the flesh.

The enthusiastic welcoming sound of their voice as you put the key in the door - welcoming you home.

Dancing around the flat.

The only being who truly understands you and doesn't judge you.

Truly being yourself with someone you love.

A gift.

Only after her last breath did I fully realize what I had in my life.

It just happened so fast.