How are you getting on mate  I can't do this

Hey Chris, sorry I have had a very bad couple of days.

It gives me comfort to speak with everyone on this platform - you all understand completely what is happening.

I have realized that my life is done but I just have to soldier on for my family.

I chose the music today for her funeral and listening to it just caused me to completely break down. Music we shared and loved.

Somehow we both have to hope for better days - 1 day at a time.

Just hoping my family and friends can help to bring me through to a better place.

I know you will get there too.  Xx

I no what you're going through mate I feel just the same  all I'm going to do is  look after children until my time is up then run off to find my wife I love her forever

 what songs did you choose? 
my real trouble is is my wife safe x

I chose 'wish you were here' pink floyd - we loved the group.

we saw David Gilmour a couple of times  and Roger Waters.

Also 'somewhere'  Barbara Streisand another one of her favourite songs.

It will be very emotional.

I will live my life but can't wait for the end so I can be with her again.

Xx

Good songs mate  I feel just the same about my life  just can't imagine what heaven looks like for my wife. The only thing that I can't understand is forever  I mean forever she is gone for  I can't get my head around that x

She's not gone forever.

She's in her native spiritual state and at peace with everything.

She is probably checking in on you if not by your side continually.

Rossella is with me - overseeing me. 

Rossella believed this and so do I.

I will be with her again but I am careful about my actions because I don't want her to be upset with me.

Xx

Thank you wish I could understand and Believe like you are I so want to believe  your right that I will get back to her( I know what you mean about your actions in case she is watching  I'm the same)  just not good with heaven  if she can see us ( I want her to ) how can she be happy and at piece  also do they know there dead . If she has to wate 40 years for me how can that be heaven? 

We both believed that physically our bodies were just vessels for our true selves, our unique personalities and energy of life. 

So it is not death really only for the body.

We will be with each again either in the spiritual domain or in new physical vessels.

We weren't really into heaven and hell to be honest.

So that was our reality but it doesn't make the loss any easier.

But we will know each other again.

Xx

I'm going to try thinking that way even writing this I want to see her  and kiss her again x

You can embrace and kiss her anytime - just ask for her and she will come xx

How do you mean x

How do you mean x

Last night I sensed somehow that Rossella was next to me and I took her hand in the spiritual domain . I just felt she was there.

Just like the green feather we found a couple days ago in the kitchen - a message.

FEATHERS APPEAR WHEN ANGELS ARE NEAR: WHAT IS THE MEANING OF FINDING FEATHERS?

Posted on July 3, 2015 by sbadmin

Although our Angels are always near us, looking over us and protecting us, we very rarely know that they are there. Sometimes, our Angels will send us small signs and signals to let us know that they are near, and will always be there to love and support us. These signs can be anything from a subtle flash of light, a rainbow on a gloomy day, or even an unexpected, sudden feeling of love and warmth within you.

One of the ultimate signs your Angels are with you is finding a feather. Coming across a feather in your path, or finding a feather in an unexpected place is thought to be a message from the Angels.

Your Angels will use feathers of all different shapes and colours to offer you comfort or validation when you need it most. Feathers could also be a clue to an answer you have been looking for, or even a message to tell you you’re on the correct path.

Xx

I am with you on that, since Ian passed i often step out and see a white feather never noticed before!

Great funeral songs you've chosen, try and keep strong you will get through it,a day at a time 

take care

Thankyou yes she loved those songs.

Having a very bad day today - seeing all the images of her in my mind at the end is heartbreaking.

Such suffering should not have happened to such a pure and beautiful soul.

I hope to break out of this today.

When I'm like this I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.

I know Richard i was the same only had the ending in my head which was horrific, but it does ease off a few weeks down the line. 

I still have terrible days 6 months on its only natural.

I had memories and wind beneath my wings by Barbara Streisand , beautiful singer.

Going for a walk in fresh air does help and takes your mind of it abit.

stay strong and take each day as it comes.

take care

Debbie

Hi mate we can do this you told me my wife is with me  so that means you're wife is With you?im no mood swings change ever 5 minutes or so having a bad day is completely normal another thing  you said to me was think how hard your wife battled on and tried to beat this we HAVE to do this for our loved ones  remember one day at a time x

Hello  Debbie I have been Reading your post you sent to Richard and I just want to say thank you your helping me to 

Yes ive been reading your post as well, you doing great job with kids so hard for you but make sure you get help either by family or outside help. 

Its early days and so difficult i really feel for you and your 2 children.

Just do a day at a time your kids need you more than anything, 

dont be afraid to get councilling too. 

Always here if ya need to chat.

take care x

Thank you  I don't no how I'm doing kids seem fine and help me a lot  but all I want is my wife  my life partner  every day apart seems harder  I love her so much and would do anything to make her come back  but know that's not  going to happen! I worry she is not at peace yet she never wanted to leave us  so I'm stuck there   Between a rock and a hard place   I need to think how amazing heaven is  and she s happy but deep down I don't feel it 

I know its so hard a cruel world. 

Been out of pain as got to be peace hasn't it surly, even though none of them wanted to leave us i get comfort knowing my husband is not suffering anymore and im sure in time you will too.

Its still vey raw for you.   

Take care 

Debbie x

Are keep going forward day by day