Lost my wife to Brest cancer 5 days ago age39

Never done anything like this  before but been told talking can help. I lost my wife 5 days ago  wife was only 39 she left behind two young boys ages 9 and 2  she had Brest cancer  and after a long battle she lost the fight. Now it's just   me I some how have to be a mum  and dad and keeping strong for the kids  with all the mummy in hevan  and will always be with us but all I want  to do is to kiss her lips and cuddle once more.     29/12/20 day 8  of this nightmare children seem to be dealing with all this ok ish! 2 year old asked for mummy ever time the phone rings had to bath him without mummy for the first time  that was very hard but I think harder for me than him 9 year old very quiet always playing mine craft  but does stop and talk  about mummy when feeling sad with is hard but lovely at the same time. Going forward I'm thinking of doing a memory jar  so we can Remember things  about  mummy not sure what else I can do? 9/2/21 sorted all the funeral stuff out music photos etc not a job anymore want to do  it's all just a daze! Sometimes at night I here her talking to me  so I sleep well and morning comes and I'm hit by that train again  just going round and round 

  • Hi Chris,

    I am so sorry to hear of your loss. It is devastating and so surreal. I still haven't got round to posting my story yet and it's 3 months today since I lost my wife to metastatic breast cancer. She has left behind our 11 year old son, who adored her. 

    I just wanted you to know that you are not alone, even if you think that you are. Things are going to be tough, but you must lean on friends and family as much as you can, given the pandemic. 
     

    I wish I could just see my wife again for just 1 day. I miss her so much, just like you must miss your wife. I try to take solace in the fact that she lives on in our son and all my family's memories. 
     

    You take care and if you want to chat reply below.

     

    Warmest Regards,

     

    Trip.

  •  Hi mate I'm sorry for your loss Cancer is horrible oh it's completely ruined my life!  Understand about you wanting to see them again and put them back with you all the time it's amazing how much love we had for each other and now I feel like she's watching me and I look out for the signs dreams of her feathers falling from the sky 

     I think it's the children that keep me going the fact that her blood is in them and her memory is living on makes me move forward But I still cry every night still question why why couldn't she be saved why did she have to get cancer in the first place I don't understand any of it she is such a sweet girl never wanted to hurt anybody's feelings! People say to me she's up in heaven she has no pain and she's looking down on us all the time! Like I said even the two-year-old keeps going mummy mummy lots of times he has no idea what's happened it's so sad I hate my life

     

  • Hi Chris its Debbie, 

    Just seeing how you are coping? Not been on here for a while and had loads messages from weeks ago.

    Hope alls going well with your 2 boys, bless em. Did Richard ever get to India? Think it was India?

    take care x