Your doing great your leading the way for the rest of us you Lisa are the shining light 

Cripes don't carry on you will give me a big head thinking I'm some Wonder Woman (I wish).

I read a lot from other widowers and it helps me and makes sense so I pass that on. 

It's true thank you for helping me so much I really do mean that 

Aww your welcome. It helps me too. 

Glad I can help you! I'm going to tell you a little about me  me and my wife and boys were my life  they read were  and other family of course !!  We never had loads of friends  not real friends anyway! My only real friend was her. I'm not good at trusting people  my heart has been broken so many times! I have lots of work mate ect  

Yes it was the same for me and Lewis, we were each other's everything. He is the only person I've been able to live with, I've mostly lived alone. I'm a very stubborn and independent person though! 
I don't have many close friends, I'm not good at it and to be honest girls can be so mean I don't usually bother, it's hard working in a mostly female dominated environment but where I work right now is not to bad for the mean girls. 
 

Hi hope you Ok ish   I'm not sure what I'm doing texting you again just feel so alone at times! Today I spoke to the cemetery people about my wife s ashes going up there ( it's what she wanted) it all so much money? You can bye  a burial plot and have up to 5 people cremated in it or one burial!  So I want  my grave sorted so one day I'm laid to rest next to her?   It looks like you can pay you 30 year or 60 years  I guess I got to pay for 60 years  as in 30 years I may be alive(70)  what I rubbish thing to have to talk about at our age 

Yes I know I've been thinking about doing a will and sorting out my pension so it will go to my niece and nephews but I don't want to leave things like how it's been for Lewis trying to sort things. 

Lewis is being buried with his grandparents ashes, I looked into how much it is, I agree it's expensive but it will be nice for you to have somewhere to visit and know you will be with her one day. 
my parents have all their funerals paid off and sorted I think because my Nan in my dads side died when I was young and they had to sort a lot out and also for my uncle I think they wanted it sorted so it was not an issue and no one having to worry about what to do for them. 
 

it's ok to talk to me I don't mind it's good to talk I'm just doing some Lego right now, I'm such a child haha

 If someone said to me six months ago should be on the cancer research chat site talking about your dead wife I'll be like that's insane not a chance look at me now? Lego my nine-year-old used to love Lego But mummy had all the patients haven't got any so we don't really play anymore