No not yet  I may have to I'm sure its because funeral is Thursday  with make it all so real 

The dr said to me she would not give me anything yet she said it's sometimes easier after the funeral but I don't know how that works 

I don't no how that works either it's so hard we're ever you turn you get hurt  it doesn't seem to matter we're you are  The grief gets you always! Like I said it's the funeral in 24 hours and I'm not ready to say good bye! Having said all that hope your having a good day  at least you have girl power  

We will never be ready to say goodbye, I said that to Lewis a lot, he was ready. 
 

I don't know about this girl power, I put on a Wonder Woman t shirt and hope for the best. 
 

sending you strength for tomorrow I will be thinking of you, you can do this, you will give your wife a wonderful send off, she will be lovely and comfortable in her clothes you picked and she will be forever loved by you and your children. 

Thank you for your kind words it's so hard  my old life has gone forever to !

I'm really don't understand why her  we are good people the kids need her 

This is really happening to me  I don't think are ever understand  why my wife was taken but she was so I guess  this is my live now  rubbish grieving all this grieving that's the hardest to deal with and being alone. You never have to say goodbye to Lewis  I don't want to say goodbye she is part of me now 

Hi Chris 

I'm so dreadfully sorry to read your post, grief is a hard thing to cope with and I feel your pain of having the extra worry of the children coping. I lost my mum last February and I am not coping too well. No matter what people say or do it's still not helping me, all I can say is take each day as it comes, it does get slightly easier, I keep mums memory alive as much as I can, I'm finally strong enough to try something a little different and I'm going to create a memory box, I have also  started  to keep a diary which is something I haven't done for a very long time, it kinda lets my emotions out without feeling I need to burden anyone else with my moaning(I know friends and family would never see it as a burden nor moaning, it's just me). I was forced to sort mums stuff out very quickly as had to empty her house, but take your time dont rush it, I wish I stored it all and went through things a little slower now in hindsight. My 5 year old granddaughter still talks about great grandma. I thought she would forget her a little but her, her mum and me were such a close unit. Keep talking john, it does help, I'm finding talking to you a massive help too, I talk to mum too like she's still with me, I'm sure she's around quite a lot, I feel a funny feeling around me and feathering feeling on my lips as if she's kissing me, probably thinking,,, for gods sake stop crying lol. 
Keep smiling, keep talking and embrace any offers of support from your friends and family. Take care and sending (( hugs))

Thank you for coming over to offer your support I'm also sorry for your loss.I bid everything with the wife now I'm so alone! I will bring the kids up the way my wife would want I love her so much always will. Like I said being alone sucks