My mum died a few months ago from breast cancer and I've been really struggling to come to terms with it. I'm 16 and I find it really hard sometimes to deal with my emotions so most of the time I just try and push them away. So when she first died, every time I thought of her I would push it away so I could focus on my work or keep laughing with my friends. It was fine at the start but now even when I want to think of her, my mind still pushes it away Every time I try to think of her, I feel like I'm fighting against my brain and most of the time I give up. I just can't manage to get myself to think about her and to remember her and I'm really scared that I'll loose my memories of her forever. Does anyone have this happen to them or know any way to help?