Hi I'm Laura I'm 29 I just lost my papa in March to multiple myelomahe was 71  . And I just was starting to accept that and then my mum got sick and fluid began to build up in her stomach so tests after test mum got told she had ovarian cancer which then was later diagnosed to cervical cancer she went into hospital to get her fluid drained and three weeks later she was gone on the 28th of November she passed away wee just lay her to rest today and I feel weird cause I've not cried I keep having this horrible feeling about mum being gone but I'm finding it hard to cry I was still crying for my papa I sat with mum until she passed away she was only 51 I keep thinking why my mum after she just helped my gran with papa and then that happened papa was peaceful but mum wasn't nice she had blisters on her moth and it went all black and the black liquid coming out her stomach I hated it and she had basically faded away to nothing I don't feel like she's gone I feel like she's still in hospital that she's still going to come home but I know she's dead it's weird