Nobody does truly know how you feel, because your husband and your relationship with him was unique, however that doesn't mean you are alone. I often feel I'm just floating around with no real purpose to what i'm doing after losing one of my closest friends. I find being around animals, especially dogs has been a way I can find a smile even on my worst days, even if it's only a small one. Are there anythings that you like to do to help you get through the day? I find when i am really struggling that I try to just make it through the next minute, 10 minutes, half hour, hour, etc depending on how hard things are, and that helps me ride out my worst moments.