My dad was diagnosed with stage 3 lung cancer 18 months ago. He went through treatment and his tumor shrunk by 50%. Last week he was feeling poorly we had the respiratory nurses in 3 times and they wanted to send him for a chest xray. My dad was unable to go because he was so ill. The respiratory nurses said that it was ok he could go when he was feeling better. My dad ended up in hospital last week they gave him 2 antibiotics and he was on a drip. The doctors said that my dad had pnemonia. 4 days in hospital and 2 different antibiotics they said he was making no improvements. They took us into a room and told us that my dad was going to die and that they will make him comfortable. I cant get over the way they pumped him full off morphine so quick. I feel they took my dad away and didnt let him say what he wanted to say. He tried to ask for a pen by the time we managed to get him a pen to write what he wanted to say he was out off it again. My dads death was horrible gasping for air for nearly 2 days constantly pumped with morphine. I just cant get this image out my head its going to haunt me forever. The doctors and nurses say that he would off been comfortable. I dont think he looked comfortable he didnt deserve to go like that. My dad was the best and he didnt want to die in hospital but they wouldnt let us take him home. I am full off guilt and grief and what ifs. I just feel like 4 days off treatment to then just give up. Did we even give him a chance to get better.
