Hope it's ok to post this here. My dad was diagnosed with liver cancer HCC stage 4 and we had a whole 3 weeks with him until he passed peacefully holding my hand. He ended up with jaundice which then lead to kidney failure. Absolutely horrid to watch my dad quickly deteriorate. I'm not coping too good with it all. I know its early days and time is a great healer since losing my brother at 32 suddenly I've been here with bereavement before and took me a long time to accept he wasnt coming back. Now my hearts broken all over again having now lost my handsome dad life is horrible. I have a 5 year old son who keeps me going and a beautiful mum who fights daily with her Parkinsons.... we drew the unlucky card when it was given out... I feel in such a dark place right now. The gp isnt really interested cos he says its grief and will get easier through time which is right, but through time isnt here yet because right now its heard and my heart is sore. 

Thank you for listening and giving me a place to vent