I lost my wife . to this god awful disease, My wife only went into hospital with suspected broken bone. she suffers from brittle bones, and while pushing herself up towards the pillows she heard a snap. yes she had broken two  bones in her left thigh Ad her left hip was dislodged from her left hip joint. after getting her pain under control they managed to get a MRI scan. and that's when they discovered she had an aggressive cancer, that was the end of May this year.

Turned out because any operation would not extend her life beyond what they thought, it was decided to let nature take it's course.My wife lasted 6 weeks. we had took it upon ourselves to care for her at home.

Her last week she had really gone from chatty to nothing. we were given so much help from the nurses who manage her pain, but every time it was increase she was in so much pain. so much so, her last week with us she begged the nurse to end it for her. for me it's 3 months on, and I still feel it as though it was yesterday. When it came to my wife last breath out I'd always told her that I loved her.

That was when I said I won't be that long before I join her. and the secret I'd been keeping from her, I had to tell her. I was diagnosed with liver cancer. and wished it was me going. she opened her eyes, whether she could see me. I doubt it. but she knew it was my voice. as she breath out that one last time, she smiled at me. she had gone, she was no longer in any more pain. I felt so guilty her Cancer was a short battle for her. and I'm still alive.

I'm finding it hard to cope, I now wear our wedding bands on a chain around my neck. and before I go to sleep I kiss her wedding ring and ask for her to take me that night. but up till now, I wake up disappointed I'm still here. you can't be married for nearly 34 years and not want to be with the woman you've spent most of your life with. Well lets see what happens when I have my MRI scan this wednesday.