Grieving and Isolation here we go again

I feel like a am being punished again as if losing your husband to Cancer isn’t enough to cope with .  When you just want to get on with your life and try and move on by starting work again going out and facing the world you get told to stay at home don’t go out ! Life if like a rollercoaster.  

  • Hi there,

     

    Best of luck, i'm not going to lie and say this lockdown gets easier as time goes own because it most likely won't. Please do try and get in contact with old friends, maybe organise a video call with someone twice a week or something as simple as that.

     

    I understand your pain, I reccently just lost my mum and it sadens me that this is the one year i've not been able to have much contact with her in fear of making her condition even worse. When i'm upset, I try swade my train of throught to a happy memory of them and smile - this is the best you can do and i'm sure your husband wouldn't want you to be upset. I also have a good understanding of the loneliness you may experience of the coming weeks, my gran lives by her own and lost her son, daughter and best friend all within last two months - she says how lonely she keeps getting but each day I try and call her once in morn, lunch and then evening - these little points of contacts even ifs its for 30 seconds do make a difference.

     

    Stay safe, stay busy and so sorry for you loss x

     

     

  • Hi there

    Thank you for your reply, i have two amazing children one at uni and one at home .  They keep me going and my amazing puppy too well she is just over a year now .i have good family and friends but I just miss my husband so much as we had been together 26happy years .  Sorry for your loss too but good words remember the fun times and keep smiling x

  • Hi Victoria, 

    Yes, it does feel like we are being punished again as if losing our loved one wasn't enough to try to cope with. It will be the anniversary of my partners death on the 27th of this month and I wanted to meet with some of his family, but Covid has put paid to that, as it did the memorial we were supposed to have in March. Just when you think that some normality is back in your life it is taken away again.

    It's good that you have your family and good friends there for you and your puppy. I have my elderly mother staying with me at the moment, which makes it a bit easier. (I was totally alone during the 1st lockdown), but l also really miss my partner- his smell, voice, hugs... It is hard. Like you, I was with him for over 25 years. At times I feel like I am almost still waiting for him to come back from some where. 

    I had a Zoom call with an old school friend yesterday - which was nice. I think it's important for us to be talking about our lost loved one with our family and friends. I find it helps me to able to speak about my partner Rick and the great times we had together. Keep remembering and talking about those wonderful times you had with your husband. 

    Take care and keep safe. 

    Jayne x