My mum was diagnosed with breast cancer 5 years ago after a mastectomy she was told that she was in remission. Sadly Nov 2019 Mum was admitted with increased calcium levels, after many tests and mum getting poorlier it transpired the cancer had spread and that she only had days to live. Coming to turns with the fact I was going to loose my darling mum was very hard but what is even harder is that she has now gone passing over on the 29th dec. I miss her everyday and feel so much guilt and anger I cry everyday and thoughts just burdeen my everyday life. It feels very much lke a dream and one day i will wake up and she will be with me. I've thought about taking my life so I can be with her as my life felt complete with being there. I feel I have nothing to get up for other than my little boy who brings me so much joy and happines but when is the pain of loosing mum going to get any easier