My partner died last month just 2 weeks after being diagnosed with cancer. Its only hitting me now that he's gone and I dont know how to cope. I dont even know what I'm feeling anymore. I just dont know what to do anymore
My husband died two weeks ago after a five week battle with cancer. One minute he was fine then the next he was gone. We were together for 54 years and he was my best friend. My heart is broken into a million pieces and I, like you, feel as if I can't and don't want to go on alone. I am trying to be strong but find that the tears and the pain will not stop. I do, however, have my dog who gives me a reason to get up on a morning - without him I would be totally lost. I find putting my words down on paper helps me a little.
The feeling of loss stays with you , you can't hide it away a part of your life's gone . I don't try and cope , there will be to many feelings hitting you at once every day . I wake up in the morning with the feeling of loss and sadness, but then i take a few minuets of controlled breathing , and plan my day . Work for 3 days and 4 days off due covid . This means 4 days of not talking with anyone, in the first few months of my loss i set a task decorate my bedroom , sort out all the photos over the last 30 years , but it is very important not to make your self to busy . I spent 30 years walking our black labradors in the woods and country side, but 3 months before my wife passed away we had to have our lab put down. I joined the National Trust , English Heritage , RSPB . armed with a new camera spend my time getting out walking and enjoying the country side again. If you can just try and reconnect with life, like may be find a nice place to go for a tea or coffee once a week , do something for your self . And there will be times when your mind will move away from the pain your feeling at the moment . Chatting on here is a good start :)
