Hello Dave, 

I am very sorry to hear your sad news. 

I Lost my Mam 15 years ago to Breast Cancer that had spread to her Liver, i was 21 and she was 49. then in 2018 i lost my Dad to primary Liver Cancer, like you i was 34 and he was 70.

I was lost and hated the world. 

I will not lie to you, there is going to be tough times ahead of you but i promise you things will get better in time, things for you will be so raw at the momnet but you just have to take it one day at a time. do not be hard on yourself, take as much time as you need, there is no right or wrong way to cope.

Your Mam would want you to live your life and be happy, i am sure (I know that is easier said than done) 

Even now i have days when my heart hurts but i try and concentrate on the good memories we have. 

Sending love your way.

Take care 

x