Hello All

I've been lurking for a while now but have never posted. My mum passed away on the 11th August of lung cancer and I am on this roller-coaster of emotions.

I feel so guilty that I didn't do more to make the doctors listen or pushed them to speed things up.. Mum always came to me as I was the fixer, and I couldn't fix this and I don't feel I tried hard enough..

I don't think I really realised how serious it was as we were Consantly told it was treatable and I really believed it would be.

I should have pushed harder for them to diagnose and treat her (such a massive delay - but that's another story).

Im just consumed with heartbreak and guilt and I just want her back. I'd do anything to have her back .