My dad was diagnosed with small cell lung cancer 6 weeks ago and passed away last thursday, a day after he was supposed to start his chemo, I knew from looking at him that he wouldnt be strong enough for chemo as I'm a nurse.

I thought we would have more time to talk and say things but he wouldnt show emotion about his diagnosis and said he wanted every treatment to fight it but did not want to know the extent to which it had spread in his body, we knew lung, ribs and brain mets and he was getting more confused but wouldnt let me ask how long, wish I had, as I was on holiday when he passed away and I probably wouldnt have gone if I realised how how ill he was.  Also feel awful as death certificate says cause of death septicaemia and I was that fixated on his confusion being brain mets and completely forgot about septicaemia.