Lost my granddaughter today ...

My amazing beautiful bravest of the brave granddaughter lost her battle to acute myeloid leukaemia today ... she's just 18 .. in January we were all going on the holiday of a lifetime to see mickey mouse in Florida... 2 days before she was taken sick and rushed up to London cancer hospital where instead of mickey mouse,  she had chemo and radio and a stem cell transplant .. 

All was looking hopeful she even had her 18th birthday in the middle of it in the hospital .. because of covid only her mum and dad were allowed to visit .. I couldn't even give her a cuddle in these last month's..

She lost her beautiful hair and still smiled through everything ... we thought she'd got it on the run .. but no ... it had come back with a vengeance... my amazing daughter in law was her rock .. and mine when I went through my breast cancer... now she's lost her daughter, who is just starting out in life ... all our hearts are broken ... 

I've been on here 3 years now, trying to help along the way .. this year we've lost a niece to cystic fibrosis... my sister to dementure now the crulest blow of all .. so Jess if your up there listening, know you were so loved ... you deffinatly earned your wings ... and to cancer ... you suck big time ...  Chrissie  

  • Dear Chriss, my heart breaks for you all.  We think we have it tough but then you lose such a young soul, take a rest from helping others and look after yourself.  Much love, Carol x x

  • I'm so sorry for your loss Chriss, thinking of you and your family at this very sad time.Linda x

  • Oh Chrissie, this is so sad I have no words. Jess was so young I can imagine it is heartbreaking for you, for your daughter in law and her friends and family. Just wanted to send you my sincere condolences and say that I am thinking of you and of all those close to Jess. I am so sorry that you were not able to see her or give her a hug in the last few months because of covid but I am sure she knew how much you loved her. 

    A big virtual hug,

    Lucie

  • Oh @Lucie  thank you so so much ... everyone's been so kind ... and I know there's no easy way through this .. it's gonna be rough in the comming weeks ... overwhelming I think is the word .. 

    But sinse I started on here, I feel a contction with you .. like your a real life angel ... and although I've never met you, feel like I know you and can hear your amazing heart ... so your little message means more then you know ... thank you for being a buddy too ...xxxxx

  • Hi Chrissie.

     

    i just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. What incredible bravery your granddaughter had. Nothing I can say will make it better, but just know that I am thinking of you. 
     

    You probably won't remember, but I posted on here when I lost my Nana last year. You sent me the most beautiful message, and I still have your words saved on my phone screen to look at every time I'm missing her. I've never forgotten you since then. 

     

    you sound like a beautiful family, and I'm sending my heartfelt condolences and a big hug to you all. May she rest in eternal peace. 
     

    hannah xxxxxxx

  • Hi Hannah...

    Yes I do remember you hunny ... because you have the same name as my nan ...  and your love for your nanna  reminded me how much me and my Emily love each other too ... 

    Thank you for your lovely words ... today we said goodbye to Jess my oldest granddaughter... it was such a heartwarming send off ... and at the end of the service they showed her on the t.v set singing at her college show last year ... she was singing you are loved by maroon 5 ... and there wasn't a dry eye there ... 

    I hope your doing well ... you will find it gets easier but we never stop missing them ... now I have to take my own advice , and carry her in my heart safely where cancer will never touch her again ... and feel honered to have had her in my life ... she'll stay forever young ... 

    Hearing from you has meant so much ... and I often think of those young ones I chat too .. and hope they are doing o.k ... l bet your nan is well proud ... sending you a vertual hug... Chrissie x x 

  • Oh Chrissie,

    I'm so sorry to have missed your post, I can only imagine in my darkest hours what you and your family are going through this year. Jess sounds like a wonderful person.

    2020 has been a tragic year for so many people in so many ways, but you seem to have been affected worse than almost anyone I know. 

    I don't have the words, so I'll stop here.

    Best wishes - thinking of you and yours.

    Dave x