Hi, I lost my sister too, just over two years ago, My thoughts are with you at this moment in time. If you want a chat I'm here. I was also like you for months after, and I'm still struggling somewhat even now. it's bloody not fair I say. it's seems too it didn't help my sister neither, and they was the questions I kept asking my self for the months and weeks that followed after I lost my sister. Hope your ok. Thinking of you.

So so sorry to hear. I lost my mum at the end of April. I know it's a different relationship but I still wake up every morning in complete shock that this happened. She got so weak and frail at the end and that was so hard to see. I also think about the treatments and what we could have done differently. My Mum didn't do the chemo as they didn't think it would do much for her. We tried lots and lots of natural therapies but nothing worked - cannabis, herbs from the amazon, high dose IV vitamin C etc etc

I try and console myself by thinking that perhaps God took her as he saved her from some worse fate to come in the future. Or maybe it really is God's plan and there is nothing we can do to change it. Sometimes I think maybe each day that goes by brings me one day closer to seeing her again and that helps. Other times I wonder if any of that is true and whether there is an afterlife. 

I don't know what to say to you about why your lovely sister suffered this way and your poor family. It's a miserable disease, so unforgiving. 

Let me know if you want to chat x

Love R

I would like to chat yes. All my friends still have their sisters and I feel nobody really understands. It’s been 14 weeks and I still wake up crying and she is alive in my dreams. I really feel as if I’ve lost a limb and that life is so unfair and has robbed us of her far far too soon. 

my little sister 44 is currently in hospital. she is very ill. she had an NG tube inserted on Sunday as she has bowel obstruction. she is also had kidney failure last week but seem to have sorted that. she is however not communicating with her friends or family. her husband visited today and she was very unresponsive. she said she was in shock. not sure if its shock from the NG procedure or has she had some news from the doctor. her husband is being told very little. so heartbreaking