Hi there ..

So so sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment... and at such a young age .. it's so crule and unfare ...

My young nieces were young when they lost their step dad, which was like a real dad to them ... I remember well how different young ones grieve to adults ... i think theres a web site called "Winston's wish"  im not sure if its still going, but i think it was set up for young ones who lost a parent ... give it a try .. and see if it will suit you .. trust me later it will help to talk .. as right now its probly too raw ... and those first months are so hard and confusing ...

But remember, there's no right or wrong way to grieve , we all do it differently ... those nieces would talk to me lots over the years .. things that would crop up .. it's no good keeping everything in .. although it's painfull talking about it, it does help your heart heal a little ... 

You do get used to them not being around, but you'll always miss him .. so be kind to your heart .. find out where you can get councilling later, when your ready .. and take one day at a time ... and tell yourself, it's o.k to feel angry ... it's o.k to cry ... it's o.k to cuss at cancer and life .. and it's o.k to smile and laugh .. 

My heart goes out to you ... I was in my 30s when I lost my parents ... I felt robbed then, as felt that was too young .. so your not alone,  others are out there too ... reach out .. ask anyone your close to, if you can talk to them when you feel low .. weather that's a sibling .. grandparent .. or even an untie like I was .. sending you a vertual hug... Chrissie x