Hello everyone I lost my heart mum dad to lymphoma cancer last year 0ctober 1st a day I can never forget.He was only 57 and survived 2 years after diognosis 1st year he was ok would drive go out just do his normal usual stuff we had very high hopes that he would get cured unfortunately the 2 year he started to get worse and the doctors tried everything on him but sadly nothing worked and everything came to an end.

I don't know how I am surviving to be honest with you everything has changed and turned upside down I miss him too much everyday I have got kids and that is the reason I'm trying to cope otherwise it might f been different I'm lucky I still have my mother but I get nightmares that one day I will get news about her and that will finish me off.Everytine I see my mum I can't cope and always Have a brake down becuase she's sad and did everything for my dad and now she's left alone and it hurts me I just want everything to go back to normal again and I know it won't and it's killing me inside.

life is not the same anymore and although I have to move on and put a brave face on for my family it's hard becuase my world has been shattered I'm not happy anymore I miss my dad too much I don't know what to do.