My mum died from lung cancer on may 29th. She had been diagnosed in feb 2019, she was given 2 months to live but was cleared in july that year only to be struck with encephalitis (severe memory loss and reduced physical capacity). The cancer came back and she went into hospital on May 13th and she spent her last week in a hospice.

As someone who was only graduating uni and starting a new job, the last 18 months have been unbearable. To lose my mums mind but to still have her physically with us was so hard, but her death during lockdown has been devastating for myself and my siblings (brother and sister) . We had such a close relationship and i dont get on with my dad unfortunately.

I feel like I'm at my lowest point even though its been 2 months and i just dont know where to look or do. This may be bearable in normal times, but im so restricted to what ive been able to do by coronavirus.

Ive found myself questioning my job and my relationship with my long term girlfriend and its become overwhelming. 

Any words of wisdom or encouragement would be greatly appreciated x