I'm so so sorry to hear about your dad. My dad was the strongest fittest man and last year was diagnosed with stomach cancer. He was given 8 weeks to live but with sheer fight positivity and love from his family he fought with everything he had but he lost his fight seven weeks ago I'm only 34 my lovely dad was 63.I have been in a crying bubble since the day he was diagnosed and I can't believe he is now gone. All I can say to you is spend every moment with your dad and treasure every minute. You will find the strength to be strong for your dad I was always strong when I was with him and broken when I had to leave him. I'm so sorry and if you ever need to chat I'm here xx

First of all I'm so sorry for your loss, I know when people say that we wonder will this make me feel better? Will anything make me feel better? I think I'm still in the "crying bubble" I like you am able to stay strong while I'm with him but as soon as I'm away I'm so heartbroken. I'm trying to still try and get my head around this! He cant have chemo he would never survive they told him so he still looks the same has hair has lost a hell of a lot of weight, and he has his only thing he was worried about "his sideburns " bless him. I just hope I can get through this I'm so numb and still working at midcounties coop, they are being great about this but I'm just exhausted!! Mentally and physically. I find it does help talking about it and it's nice to have someone who truly knows how I feel I hope you hear from you soon, take care and if you need to chat I'm here too. 

Lee-Anne x

Hi Lee-Ann. I truly understand how you feel it's like the world has ended. I will miss my dad forever but he managed to have a few sessions of chemo and as you say about your dad he had a full head of hair and lost a lot of weight before he started the chemo and after the few sessions of palliative chemo he was destroyed it took away his quality of life and made him severely ill. If i could change anything I would have tried to stop my dad from having the chemo it was awful.Try to look after yourself. If you really need it and can try and get some time off of work from the doctor. It really does help to talk i really do feel for you. Thanks for listening to me too and take care. Always here xx

Hi first of all thank you for your reply, I'm sorry your last days with your dad he wasnt easy I'm glad that my dad hasn't had chemo as he would never servive it, I wish he had more time it's so heartbreaking I dont want to loose my dad, he is my hero, my teacher and let me know with a look that I was in trouble lol I'd always say to my mum " mum tell him" hes giving me the look she would laugh and say "kevin stop picking on her" lol we all have such a special bond I never want to loose it, I'm afraid I'll not be able to get over this he is my life! I love him so much it hurts to think of my life without him.  I'm always here if you need to talk always x

Lee-Anne xx

Hi lee-anne it really is heartbreaking. I don't think we will ever get over it....Just somehow get by. It's lovely to hear that you have such a good bond with your dad. I did with mine too. That's what will get you through. And your mum. You keep chatting that will also help. I didn't until now I just used to read posts but I definitely think this forum helps to a degree.

you take care and look after yourself. 
 

Jen xx

Hi jen, your words really help especially now, the hardest part for me is knowing I'm going to loose him but not knowing when! I'm trying to stay strong but it's so very difficult. I think I did the right thing coming to this forum like you said talking about it helps. Please take care and you stay safe too x