I lost my dad a month ago. We just had his funeral. Reading your post I felt I needed to respond. I feel exactly like this. I have no will you carry on with life. He was my life. My everything. We was like twins, ran a business together and went on holiday together. I've come on here tonight because I feel worse after his funeral. I don't want to live with this pain. I hope time helps a little. 
how are you doing now ? Cheers tom 

Hi Tom,

First and foremost, I'm extremely sorry to hear what you've had to go through and what you're going through now. Losing one's "life" (as you describe your dad and as I would describe mine) is utterly horrendous.

I wish I could tell you that I am doing better now, but I am not. I lost my heart and soul and nothing and nobody in the world can make up for that. It sounds as if you have similar feelings. Perhaps it will help a tiny bit to know that there is someone else out there who suffers.

I don't want to sound too pessimistic. You'll find other people in this forum for whom time has indeed been helpful. Many people do learn to live again. I haven't. But perhaps I will.

But I just want to say again that I feel for you. I wish you had your dad back.

I lost my Dad in 2018 at 42. He was my soul mate and completely understood me. He was kind, supportive and loved us all . He is the only person who truly 'knew' me and he advised when asked . I was devastated at his death. I never thought I'd get over it.  4 years later it is easier but talking about him, thinking about him has me in tears . I loved him more than anything in the world . My mum died last year. Much as I miss and love her , I haven't grieved the way I have and continue to about my father . That's awful to write 

I lost my Dad in 2018 at 42. He was my soul mate and completely understood me. He was kind, supportive and loved us all . He is the only person who truly 'knew' me and he advised when asked . I was devastated at his death. I never thought I'd get over it.  4 years later it is easier but talking about him, thinking about him has me in tears . I loved him more than anything in the world . My mum died last year. Much as I miss and love her , I haven't grieved the way I have and continue to about my father . That's awful to write 

Thank you for sharing. I'm pleased to hear that it is easier for you now (4 years later). But I totally understand that you're still grieving. I'm certain I will never stop.