Hello Gtp, 

I am so glad you have found this forum useful and thank you for sharing these wise thoughts. You are right, it's important when coping with grief not to bottle things up. There is a section on our website on coping with grief which I hope has some helpful tips and suggestions for those trying to deal with these various complex feelings you describe so accurately. 

We're all here for you anytime you need to talk. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator