Hi, I lost my husband last August from colon cancer & it's just been an awful time. We were given the all clear last March & 5 months later he was gone.it still doesn't seem real. I keep thinking why is.We have 3 lovely kids that have been my rock when I should have been theirs. I think this pandemic has left me with a lot more time to spend on my own & I realise how much I needed him & miss him. I keep telling myself I'm not the only one that's had to go through this but it feels that way. When does it get better?