Struggling with losing my Nan

Hello, I've been reading this page on and off since my Nan passed away in October and I'm really struggling 8 months on. My Nan was diagnosed with lung cancer in May and passed away at home on the 4th October, she was healthy in every way through her life, never had to visit hospital, was rarely ever ill and to hear she had a lung cancer so suddenly and lose her 5 months later was surreal. She had her biopsy and everything was fine but she started to become quite ill and we found out the cancer had quickly spread before they could start her on chemo and she was just too weak. This is the family member I have lost and I was really close with my nan and I cry at the though of not seeing her again a lot, it feels like I will never accept that she is gone, does it get any easier as I don't see how it can 

  • Hi there Laura...

    Bless ya ... I'm a nan who has cancer ... and the one person in the whole world , l adore with all my heart is my granddaughter Emily... she is my world ... and when I was diagnosed with breast cancer and was booked in with a masectomy for a grade 3 ... really thought my time was up .. 

    My granddaughter was just 5 at the time .. and we were and are two best buddies... one day she asked me if I was going to die ... I told her the drs were going to try and get nanny better ... but if not, I'd be that little star next to the bright one that's my mummys star... every time we found a white feather I would tell her that's my mum, saying hello.... and I would look down on her every night, and she could look up and see me too ...luckily I'm still here, and she's 8 now and every day I'm with her is a bonus ...

    But if one day it takes me, I will look down on her every night ... and tell her how much her nanny loves her ... I recon if you look up there, there will be a star that takes your eye ... and just maybe, it's your nan looking down telling you, how much she loves you too ... Chrissie  

  • Hi Chrissie, 

    i am so sorry to hear you're battling this horrible disease, thank you for your kind words, I was lucky enough to have 23 years with my Nan, just wish we had a few more. 
    Take care xx