Hi Gtp

Hope you are ok, nothing can ever prepare you for losing your precious mum. I think it's natural to keep asking yourself if you could have done more and I'm sure you did everything you could, at the time we do the right thing. It's the saddest time losing someone we love so much. It's good you are able to keep busy as I think that's the only way forward. 

It's been 18 weeks since I lost my darling mum and I  still feel stuck in my grief. I have an unbelievable amount of anger and as you say ask myself if I could of done more. I wish I'd realised what was going on with her. Just so wish I could have the last year back and re write it.  I think I know my mum isn't coming back but I still feel she is. I know that makes no sense but I can't move forward from that feeling.

Life has changed so much, and for me I don't think I will ever feel 'better' than I do now, I also feel the longer I'm away from her the sadder I will be.

Thinking of you and hope you are getting support.

Best wishes, Nicola