Hi
my grandpa has been poorly for a while now and got told he would be okay for a while at the end of last year, but his health has rapidly deteriorated during lockdown and he was moved to a hospice for end of life care, as the cancer came back with a vengeance
i'm finding it very hard these past couple of days not being able to cope i can't sleep at all and have been awake since yesterday morning and i'm just so lost and i feel like it's so much harder not being able to even hug him or hug my grandma during this and i just feel sick all the time
he got the syringe driver fitted and we saw him and he was just breathing and looked so different and i can't stop thinking about it
bearing in mind the last time i saw him he was relatively healthy
would love for any advice on coping mechanisms as i don't think it's going to be long before he leaves us
thank you
