Hi,

I'm so sorry you've lost your precious mom. It's incredibly painful and made worse by the current restrictions. Please know you are not alone in your pain and there are others going through the same experience.

I too lost my mom to cancer when she was just 49 and I was 21. I'm also in my 30s and I have just lost my dad 3 weeks ago to leukaemia aged just 64. He died a week after his diagnosis. I have questioned the fairness of it all, felt the pang of jealousy when I see daughters with their mothers and now I will go through the same grieving for my beautiful dad. The only thing that keeps me strong is as painful as it was losing my mom somehow I made it through and I hope I have the strength to do it again. 

I found counselling helped and I have an very understanding husband. Is there anyone you can turn to for support? 

My dad was in intensive care before he died and cared for by the most wonderful human beings. I would say your mom is so proud of you and the work you do. Caregivers tend to look after themselves last so please use any and all resources available to support you through this difficult time. Unfortunately there is no quick and easy path through grief but I promise you in time you will learn how to carry the sadness while also managing to find some joy in life again.

Thinking of you.