in January I lost my Dad. In April 2018 he first got diagnosed, he went through all the pain and worry of chemotherapy to shrink the tumour to get his operation but he was still refused. In January 2019 he was diagnosed as terminal and got told he had 2 months to live but he lasted a year and 2 weeks. Bit although we were expecting it for so long, it still hurts so much. I can't go to my family for help because they are feeling the same way and don't know what to say to make it more tolerable. It's nearly every day I break down and cry because I miss him so so much! Days can be great but then one simple thing such as a car or something else that he liked sets me off.i know that is normal to feel like that but it's too much, too overwhelming. It can sometimes affect the things I am doing. It affects everyone around me. I just need people who I can talk to who has been in similar situations as my friends may be amazing towards me but they don't understand as they have their parents around them.