It takes my breathe away to even try to write this down, let alone tell anyone face to face. I lost my mum on the 19 th April. Mum had a sudden cancer diagnosis in June 2017. After a big op,stoma fitted, mum seemed to be doing ok. There was chemo, you get used to a new normal really. In denial probably. Then just like the first time a blockage caused unreversable problems. Within 3 wks mum lost the battle. In my mind this was never going to be the case I didn't want to even think I'd never have my mum. I'm going to be 50 within the month, Mum was 75. How do you start to accept what's happened, how can you start to talk about it. I feel so lost and sad. The last wks where all traumatic and now we have a restricted service to deal with, meaning close family inc grandchildren can't attend. What is life about? Is it worth it?
