Losing my dad

A lot of people responded to my post a few months back called accepting defeat in my dads last months me trying to prepare myself for the end and the grief I knew was coming. I'd like to start off my saying thank you so much to each person who commented and to the person who messaged me even to check in and see how I was coping. This sites been amazing. I lost my dad yesterday. It was difficult as expected and the pain I'm in is indescribable but I would take this pain for him to be out of his pain. No more suffering that this bast*rd of a disease brought. I still have a long way to go in this grief process and to work through this pain and learn to live without him. He gave me 6 and a half years and had the heart of a lion. I'm left broken but I'm so proud and full of love for the man he was ️ Again guys thank you for the support 

  • I'm so sorry to hear about your dad the heart of a lion was the way I described my dad to!! I lost him 30/12/2019  its a pain that knocks us for six and we can't ever prepare no matter how we try to the people on this site are amazing and helped me and my son loads it's going to take a long time to heal but nearly 5months down the line I'm coping I have a pendant with my dads fingerprint I still have a part of him the funeral director sorted it out for me i hope your heart heals soon this vile disease can't ever take our memories take care of yourself good luck on your journey it will get to the point where the tears will slow down and memories will surface x

  • Thank you so much for your response. I read it last night and the minute I seen it I dashed off and purchased the kit to make the pendant! What a beautiful idea so again thank you. I'm in the medical profession so I can't have any jewellery apart from a necklace and a plain band ring so it's perfect. My dad gave me his wedding ring so I'm also going to have it sized and wear that as my wedding ring as I can't wear my own one with stones. I'm finding just now that it's getting harder every day but I know that's probably the shock wearing off and the grief taking hold. X

  • Hi there ...

    So so sorry you lost your dad to this crule cancer ...

    But you should be so proud, as the love you have for him showed through ...  I hope you got to say everything you wanted to say .. though you both knew anyway how you both felt ...

    You havnt lost him, you now keep him safely tucked up in your heart,  you can carry him with you through your journey through life ... you are half of him .. he will see through your eyes.... I lost my mum 30 years ago, but we all still talk about her now .. my little granddaughter knows how wonderful this great nanny is, and every time she finds a white feather, she tells me my mum, has left another feather for her ..and she's only 8 ...

    We only loose them, when we stop talking about them ... and try to remember your daddy, pre cancer .. the dad who held you as a baby, watched you grow from a child to the wonderful lass you are today .. coz if we just remember the cancer memories, then cancer makes us a victim too .. wer more then cancer, wer the one who was happy, healthy , and made all those memories befor we were touched by it..

    So I'm sending you a vertual hug... he'll be looking down, saying that's my girl ...

    Chrissie  

  • One thing to remember on your journey is that your not alone my heart breaks for you your having to grieve while putting up with this horrible virus and lockdown you have mentioned your in the medical profession words aren't enough to thank you all your amazing your Dad would be beaming with absolute pride now in heaven and at peace with no .more pain hold him close to your heart both our dads will always be with us ask the funeral director about the pendant they Will do it for you mine has my dads fingerprint its a part of him I will always have take care and keep safe xxx