Hi there ...

Your not alone ... everyone on here is either going through cancer , or lost someone to cancer , or are caring for terminally ill loved ones with cancer ... we all know grief to well .. there's no one here who have not been touched by it ...  and those of us with cancer, face loosing our fight with it at any time .. we live with it daily ..

I'm sure your dad wouldn't want you to hurt so bad ... he'd want to see you move on, but keep him in your heart and take him with you ... maybe councilling is what you need .. you were blessed to have had a wonderful dad ... my niece and nephew lost their dad as a toddler, and baby .. they will never know any memories of their daddy ... it is hard and heartbraking ... I miss my mum 30 years on .. but I know one day I will be with her ...  

So reach out, and ask for help to get councilling, so you can work out why it is still so hard ... but to get help, you have to go to g.p and ask ... Chrissie....