Hi, 

Dont know where to start so I will recap quickly, then tell you what's been happening recently,

Dad was diagnosed with mesothelioma in April 2019, was told he would maybe see Christmas, 

August 2019, My mum got rushed into hospital 3 days before myself, the wife and our 6 children were set to all go on our first camping holiday mum and dad (gran and granda) together for a week in mull (Scotland),

13th Aug 2019 mum died, we were all by her side, they had to switch the machine off there was nothing they could do......... 

THIS IS THE FIRST THING THAT HAPPENED.........

The nurse pulled the tube out, and we were all destroyed as expected........ what we didnt expect was the next thing, we were all sat by mums bed, I was holding her hand dad was holding the other mum had been confirmed and in the silence the heart monitor machine moved on it's own as if someone had put their foot on it and kicked it across the room...... no one was near it, the nurse came into the room and couldn't shut my mums eyes either (not sure if that's relevant?),

Since then I've had a feather drift into the car as I was sat in it stationary outside the hospital (I still have it), I've had robins fly right up to me sit on a fence infront of me and even one fly onto the table next to me and let me feed it a few crumbs.

After a long battle with a broken heart and the mesothelioma, dad passed away in Jan 2020, we were all by his bed and had the best time with him to make him happy even though he was destroyed without mum, he even told me "he doesnt want to be here anymore, he wants to be with mum", 

A few months have passed and I will be lieing if I said I'm coping, truth is I'm really struggling with everything, my wife is working every hour on the covid 19 ward and I have the kids (I'm a self employed tutor and cant work because Corona) there is no time to talk to each other, when we can we do but were both exhausted............ NOW! This is up to present, 

I've seen allot of lights at the sides of my eyes (it's not my vision as I've got very good eyesight and have been tested recently).

these lights I'm seeing are white, they can appear as if someone in a white shirt has just walked info your porifieral vision, the wife has seen actual feet coming down the bottom of the stairs, and one random day it was just me and my youngest son in the house, i walked into the kitchen and a very thick white figure in a human shape was stood in the corner of my kitchen, i did jump ran over and grabbed my son to make a hasty exit from the house but had a word with myself and walked back into the kitchen (scaired!, but I did it). 

There is more like m, things going missing, never to be seen again when I know for a fact  

I have had allot of experiences my whole life, enough to change my views and believe in ghosts/spirits, but recently has been very active,  

I'm so sorry for the long winded message and would like to thank you for reading if you have read up to here