Hi, I'm so sorry to hear about your mum passing on Friday. My dad also passed on Friday evening. My sister is a carer, so we managed to keep him at home with me, my sister and mum. He died in his bed with us there (he couldn't have stayed at home without her to care for him so well). 

Like you, I have had a hard week, dad became unconscious on Wednesday evening and then Friday his breathing changed all together and it there was very long pauses between breaths at the end. Although I'm glad we could keep him at home, as this is what he wanted, it had taken its toll on me seeing him dying and when he had gone. 
 

I personally believe that a person will let themself go when they feel the time is right. So maybe your mum didn't want to put you and your dad though watching her pass. I was down stairs and when my sister called me up, it was only 5 minutes later he took his last breath. 
 

Your mum sounded like a true fighter! Just like my dad. I have promised him I wouldn't let the world forget him and will tell everybody I meet all about him. Right now I only see his face when he had gone, but I know my memories will come back and I am cherishing them.  I really do hope you can do the same with your mum. 
 

You are only young and I'm sure she is so proud of how strong you are being right now. I hope you can keep finding the strength to keep going. But don't forget, it's ok to cry. (My fave crying space in the shower!)

Take care xx