Hello my mum passed away three weeks ago without any warning her cancer was undiagnosed she literally went into hospital on the Wednesday and was gone three hours after arriving I wasn't even allowed to be with her or see her after due to the covid-19. I'm struggling so hard to except this and I feel like im stuck in a daze every time I try to accept it I get this horrible heavy feeling in my heart and start having panic attacks I'm young myself so I lived with her and being stuck in this house is making it so much worst I think. I'm trying so hard to find a positive but I really can't and the fact I can't even put all my bad energy into planning a special day for her is making me so beside myself i just feel like I'm waiting for her to come out of hospital again as she was in and out a lot over the years.