Hi georgie21,

I'm sorry to read that you're going through this at the momennt. Perhaps it is your body/mind's way of dealing with something, or perhaps it's a stage of grief - try not to think of it as remembering him in this way as such, as no doubt you have many other positive memories. Perhaps you could try to spend some time thinking about other times with him and writing down some of these, to focus on these more positive aspects.

If you feel you're struggling with this or with your grief generally, there is always support available - such as via the organisation Cruse, or perhaps a counsellor. We are of course always here to help on this forum too.

Wishing you all the best,

Ben
Cancer Chat Moderator