Oh Betty I share your pain.

My amazing husband Matthew passed away last Wednesday also of pancreatic cancer which had spread to liver .

He was 45 years young and yesterday with our girls, we booked and paid for his funeral- to say this feels surreal is nothing short of an understatement.

He is all I think about from the moment I wake until I fall into some sort of fitful sleep.

Have to go and register his death later this morning

Please be in pain but don't do it alone - if you want a cry or rant please know I'm here for you sharing the same suffering xxx

Im so sorry for the loss of your husband I can feel your pain as I am going through this too as my husband passed away 7th September from having cancer and getting infection just after his first chemo he too was only 54  and we have been happily together 26yrs with two beautiful children 16 and 18. This is a real tough time and no-one can prepare you for this but you just have to go on day by day living. I still cannot believe it has happened to us as our life was so perfect . We only found out he had lung cancer in July 2019(he was fit and healthy)  we didn’t have time to discuss anything . Try and keep strong and carry on  x

Hi bettyboop

I too feel your pain and can relate to everything you say. I lost my darling husband Tom on 5/2/20 to pancreatic cancer. He was fit and well and had no symptoms at all. We had an amazing 2019 with a lovely family Christmas. On 30 dec he didn't feel great but we thought it was a tummy bug. Our gp thought the same when Tom visited him on 9 jan. A further 3 doctors visits (walk in centre, out of hours go and back to own gp) resulted in him being admitted to hospital on 13 jan with suspected blood clot on lung, chest infection or pneumonia. After tests / scans we were told on 16 jan Tom had pancreatic cancer which had spread to his lungs, liver, lymph nodes and there was some under his skin. He also had pneumonia and multiple clots in his lungs.. we were devastated.. how could he look so well, well not the last few days, yet have so much going on.. 

he came home for a few days but was readmitted on 22 jan due to hospital pneumonia. His body was not strong enough to fight this and 2 weeks later he was gone.. I'm still shocked at the speed and aggressiveness of this. Tom was 67 and we had been married for 40 years. I miss him so much, we were a perfect match, he was such a kind loving man who had a smile for everyone. I feel like he took half of me with him.. I take each day as it comes, do what I feel like doing and get out in the fresh air if I can.. they say time is a healer but I know I'll never get over loosing him xxx

I am so saddened to hear the loss of your husband. 
Rich didn't look poorly at all even in December, just had the stomach pain when he ate. 
It is so devastating to loose someone you love this way and the void and pain that is left is the worst ever. To carry on without them is so hard and I struggle so much fist thing every morning. 
Time is a great healer, we will never get over this just learn to live with it and they will always be carried in our hearts and memory. 
I hope you have family and friends supporting you, but saying that at the moment that is impossible too as we are all having to take the necessary precautions with Coronavirus. 
Take care 

Hello TLC

I lost Matthew 9 days ago from pancreatic cancer and although we had 5 weeks from diagnosis to death he spent 3 of those in hospital with pneumonia and then blood clots to lungs.

It was so awful watching this big bear of a man shrivel in front of you .

As The cancer had spread to his liver he also kept going into confusion and delirium which was horrible.

For the last week of his life he wasn't really with us mentally just kept repeating that he wanted to go home.

What so scary for me is the amount of us who have all suffered loss from this spiteful disease.

Anyhow take care and know we are not alone here.  

Hi Betty & Paula

it is so sad to hear you are both in a similar situation to me. It is really hard to understand how our husbands were well and then gone so quickly. I have learnt more about this cancer and how aggressive it is. I do wonder how long it Tom had it with us being completely unaware. 
Paula I agree watching that deterioration is heartbreaking and unbelievable on a daily basis..

I do have a supportive family, my sister in law has been amazing. Helping me to do all the difficult telephone calls and related paperwork. I just made a big list and slowly working through it. 
my son and daughter really stepped up to help me and their Dad. They both had a special bond with him and have struggled. But we are all close and talk lots about how we feel, very open with our feelings. Together we will get through this. My son and his girlfriend have just come back home from London. He has asthma and we felt it was a better option due to the virus. So we are looking after each other.  
I hope you find comfort knowing you are not alone in this journey. We and our loved ones have gone through something terribly shocking. They are at peace now and we need to find ours and continue as they would want us to, even though that seems impossible at present. Look after yourselves and keep safe from this virus xx