Hi ya ..

Yea a huge tip I learned is don't be strong all the time .. those feelings are there because you need to feel them .. it's like you open your brain and put feelings in the back, where you can cope .. but the more you do this, the fuller it becomes .. till one day you open it up, and it all falls out .. then it's overwhelming..

Sharing thoughts with your bro ... maybe he'd like to put some things of mum away, and can't as he's trying to be brave for you .. the only way to walk this journey is to listen .. listen and share those feelings .. it's o.k to cry .. it's o.k to cuss cancer ., you need to grieve ... you've held it in too long .. and even if your sister sees you cry .. I'm sure if you say you miss mum, it gives her permission to miss her too ..

Be kind to yourself ... your heart is hurting .. and needs some T L C ... just start small .. and take baby steps and start by being honest in how you feel .. it's good to say to your bro, you don't need him to make it better .. you just need him to hear you ..  sending you a vertual hug... Chrissie x