Hi Shanny,

Super difficult but I know what you are going through having lost my mum on November as well. Super unfair and so many trigger points but I think you have to try and turn it around and think how would your mum want you to be? she'd want her daughter and best friend to be positive and happy. Try and reflect on what you had and be grateful for that time. Maybe think of activites you can do to honour her or do as a tribute to her to drive you forward in a postive way. 

Hope this helps

Scott